Failed. Attempt.

This morning was the beginning of my finals. I was a nervous wreck, I stayed up until three in the morning studying and regretting my earlier cup of coffee. I wanted to give the first portion of my day to God, so I woke up at 7:30, to spend time with Him. It was during that time that I realized, Dana needs a friend and someone to be like Christ to her. Of course I knew that, but I didn't want to remember it, because I was getting frustrated.

So...I invited her to dinner. I told her to be here at 6:30p.m. and that we could watch a movie and eat dinner.

I arrived home early around 6 and began to prepare the dinner. Rosemary Chicken, twice baked potatoes, corn, and breadsticks were the menu for the night.

At 7:15 pm Dana showed up. I had just put in Remember the Titans to watch so she watched that as we waited on the food to finish. Right as I was putting dinner on the table, Linda walked in. I had only made enough for two so I offered her my plate, but she declined. So there we were the three of us watching the movie and eating. Dana requested more breadsticks so I made 2 more for she and her mom. When Linda got her breadstick, she decided it was time to leave. And after Dana got her final breadstick, she left as well. IN THE MIDDLE OF THE MOVIE.

I really didn't have a problem with that, I just thought it was odd. But you know what's sad...When I gave Dana her food and a fork and knife, she didn't know how to use the utensils. I saw her eat the grilled chicken with her fingers. She has never been taught etiquette, let alone how to use a fork and knife together.

Can we sit back for a moment and take in our blessings...

I live in a different world now.

Love is patient...

There is a minor reason why I haven't been writing. Well a couple reasons, really. One I have been out of town and two school has been really difficult, so it's taken longer....BUT those aren't the main reason.

The main reason is that I have been dealing with a lot of frustration with Dana. Recently, Dana, decided that she wanted more from me all the time. She has asked if I want to give her more of my movies, if I would make her more smoothies, give her orange juice(since I didn't make her a smoothie), and take her to Craighead Forest. She now comes up and just sits next to me, and I really can't talk because she usually comes up while I'm studying. This morning, she followed me to work out...

The thing is I know Dana has her issues. And because of that I'm trying not to get frustrated when I have seen her become kind of greedy with me.

But I have a question for all those who are reading this?

What is right? To draw a line and make sure she doesn't cross it OR to give her everything she wants? This is where the dissonance is taking place in my head. I truly want to be like Christ to my neighbors, but I'm not sure what that looks like with her. I do know it is out of my comfort zone.

But that's what I signed up for.

In other news, one of my neighbors to the right of me are super cool. He is an artist and she works in a pharmacy. I saw him last night at 1 in the morning sitting outside and playing the guitar. SO COOL!

Comment back, I want some feedback.

make some banana pancakes...and how about some smoothies while I'm at it.

I have some of the most fun times I have had in my apartment this week! I was able to make smoothie's for Dana and her Mom, I had a rocking out jam session with my friend, and had a Mexican feast with a dear friend from Texas.

I f ound out some interesting news! I'm about to introduce a new character, she is my neighbor to right, she and her boyfriend live there. They are the sweetest, and most normal of the people I have met in my apt complex. For the purposes of this blog I will call them Joseph and Stephanie. Joseph is an artist and I believe Stephanie is a nurse. Steph is one of those people who you want to get to know. She is sweet, always remembers my name, and continues to begin conversations with me. I really think we will be friends.

Well, Steph, Dana, my friend and I were all outside and I got talking about the lady who died in my apartment. There were telling me about the kind of person she was, nice but a drunk. They were telling stories about how she would go to her boyfriends house for days on end and come straggling home drunk and unable to walk. No one really knows what happened to her, but everyone assumes it was her drunkeness that ensued a fall, which caused her to hit her temple, which ended up killing her. All everyone knows is that she died. So we were talking about, and I told them that I was trying to get to the bottom of this. After talking Steph said, you know who her boyfriend is? I said that I didn't and she told me it was Ronnie! Lucy's SON! RANDOM! Man this story gets crazier everyday.

Today Dana came up and said, "I wish I could have another smoothie..." I told her I would make her one again soon, but that today I had to finish my work before I went to babysit....

Here's to finding out the truth about the previous occupant, more jam sessions, and smoothies.